Thursday, June 10, 2010

More Convenient than Formula

Something I posted on Facebook had a N@W sister saying that "nobody ever stopped giving formula because giving the breast was easier."

To a certain extent, I guess there is some truth to that, especially maybe for working moms. And maybe it's only I who feel hassled having to sterilize bottles properly (for when I'd express milk) but I still can't imagine it being convenient to get up at night to make a bottle and then feed a baby with it. I also can't imagine just propping the milk on a pillow and letting the baby feed that way, especially an infant. I believed in burping. And exhausted as I was, I like holding my baby.

I mean, when else was I supposed to hold my baby?

And true, bottle feeding may mean more people can get to feed the baby. But breastfeeding moms who are working were able to express milk and let others feed their baby. And it's not like you'd have to do it forever for it to really be a chore... and with the right attitude, nursing need not even deprive you of a social life.

Oh and I soooo loved not having to carry feeding bottles and milk around, with our diaper bag already heavyy because of my DSLR.

So 'formula is more convenient than breastfeeding' is not a fact for all. It's very relative and greatly depends on what you consider as convenient for you.

Me... I have always valued peace of mind and the best nutrition possible more. And it's not me being self-righteous either. I just don't think I could ever be the mother I want to be if am also fretting if the milk I give to my infant is sterile and hiyang. I am way too paranoid and exacting to just settle in that regard.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

What Makes a Mother

I thought of you and close my eyes and prayed to God today
I asked what makes a mother, and I know I heard Him say,
"a mother has a baby, this we know is true"
But God can you be a mother, when your baby's not with you?
"Yes, you can," He replied, with confidence in His voice,
"I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime, and others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb, but there's no need to stay"

I just don't understand this God, I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared His throat, and then I saw a tear.
"I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile, with other children and say...
"we go on earth to learn our lessons, of love and life and fear.
My mummy loved me so much, I got to come straight here
I feel so lucky to have a mum, who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly, my mummy set me free.

I miss my mummy oh so much, but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep, on her pillows where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear.
"Mummy, don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here"
So you see dear sweet one, your children are okay.

Your babies are here in My home, and this is where they will stay.
They'll wait for you with Me, until your lessons are through.
And on the day that you come home, they'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a mother, it's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of, right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize, until their time is done.
Remember all the love you have, and know that you are a special mum.



This was shared in N@W today because someone lost her baby. She also asked those of us who are pregnant to celebrate all the pregnancy hormones and issues we have because it's a sure sign our baby was thriving inside. It was a reality check indeed... I hope God didn't think I wasn't grateful for Yamee.

More Bingeing

I am now wondering if I'd need a colon cleanse after this pregnancy. I am so hating the instant noodles at 1 AM already... not that I do that everyday but still, it sucks to be eating junk food.

I am also bingeing on Fita crackers and have just consumed a great amount of cake and ice cream. Hubs also bought me stuff like hash browns, instant sotanghon, malunggay instant noodles, even hotdogs and ham. Ewww.

Friends are quick to comfort me that one can't really fight pregnancy hormones and that most moms have had nasty cravings. Junk food cravings, fast food cravings, food they normally wouldn't eat. I just really hope that Yamee is a-okay inside and will be as healthy as Kuya Yakee.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Quick Dinner Recipes

I just realized that I need to start learning new quick dinner recipes again. First of all, there's this incessant way I'd get hungry late at night or in the wee hours of the morning. And then there is the fact that I will be the mother of two by the end of this year. It would be great if the second one will have as healthy an appetite as my firstborn, and would like the same things he likes, but what if Yamee doesn't?

Of course, I will always insist on healthy eating habits and healthy eating, despite my recent junk food binge. I do have the pregnancy to blame for that anyway. But few siblings like the same things, and I am all for individuality, so I would need to be able to basically service both kids of mine. I know I have at least a year and a half before my second-born is fully eating solids and table food but there is something else.

We certainly couldn't find our own place this year and leave the comforts of our current rent-free home because of the delivery expenses we are saving for. But we really hope to be gone by next year. That means we may not have enough to keep the services of my cousin, who cooks and cleans for us. A part of me rages against the drudgery of having to cook for my family but my husband will be working hard to provide for us, I really should not even dare complain. Plus, I'd still rather be a stay-at-home Mom, even if it would mean I'd be cooking in batches while raising two kids and maybe even homeschooling one already. I mean, I can't go back to work and leave them behind. I can't live without being there for them everyday, for most of the day. I just can't.

Right now, I still can't tolerate heat very much but I really plan on going back to cooking at least once a week. I have to learn how to be creative with ingredients and use the same basic ones while coming up with different dishes. Healthy dishes, if I may add.

Such a tall order!

Friday, June 4, 2010

Bingeing on Instant Noodles

I had to send my hubby out last night to buy instant noodles and egg for me as I was hungry and craving something hot. I really wish there's a 24-hour Chinese restaurant nearby because I'm craving seafood noodles and 8 treasure soup as well. I just seriously hope that I won't be needing any Phentermine 37.5 after this pregnancy.

I did weigh myself two nights ago and am still 155 pounds. That means my body is just basically rearranging itself and the weight is congregating on my tummy. I actually have the ghost of a collar bone again and my arms and thighs aren't as massive as before. But old stretch marks have started saying hello around my belly button. That's from not putting any cocoa butter and staying in an air conditioned place most of the day. My skin is basically all dried up.

Anyway, I really hate that I am eating unhealthy food these days. Hopefully, my taste buds will normalize already.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Celine Dion: Pregnant With Twins

I just found out that Celine Dion is pregnant with twins. They got pregnant via IVF, same with their firstborn, and this was supposedly their 6th try this time. I am really happy for her and her husband because they have always seemed so in love.

And I know they can very well afford the expensive treatments, since they have Kichler lighting in their mansions and everything else that's expensive to make them comfortable, but IVF never held guarantees, and I can just imagine how exhausting it was to always be poked and prodded, injected and tested. I had told hubby before that I couldn't go that extra mile other trying-to-conceive couples do so I really have so much respect for them for being brave.

Oh and yeah, I am a little envious of the twins. But seeing as mine isn't a smooth pregnancy at all, am good. Plus, it's not like we have their money.

Celine and I are due around the same time. Haha.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Down Time Again

Weirdly enough, ever since the rains started falling, I started not feeling good again. And I hate being touched and moved and moving. I just like to lie down and that's that.

I even hate reading to my son as that requires sitting up, enthusiasm and character voices. So yeah, this pregnancy is really costing my relationship with him. I just try to be pragmatic about the whole thing. I have invested two solid years on Yakee, years that no one can take away from us. So this small glitch in that investment shouldn't make me feel more guilty because it is not something I really can help. I mean, I don't feel up to anything and I don't have the energy for anything. I hate being such a damsel in distress but I'm really on down time right now. I can only do so much... and that's basically try not to barf.

I just hope all these hormones mean Yamee is healthier than Yakee!!!